Im abandoning this blog.

Its overloaded with UN-happiness.

Starting off with new life, wish to start up a new blog, with only happy entries.

Bye ALL!

No one will get any worst den me.....

Im the most unhappy brride in this world. 2 days away from my wedding.....
I cant hold back my feelings towards u guys anymore.....

I really mis-take u guys as my close buddies....now...today....i get to noe where i stand as a fren in ur heart. I just wan to believe wat i believe.....i din misunderstand anything.....

I noe i wont be receiving blessing from u guys....
I noe i should haf hold back my words.....
I noe i should not have show my tempermental.....

Im trying real hard here to be understanding...u guys don help me out with my wedding is ok....i noe all have bz life.....i noe im the one din assign to u wat help i needed.....

All i need is a smile....all they asked for is also a smile......

Why are we the one taking initiatives?

Wat did I done wrong? Maybe I jus deserved all these shit. Even I deserved it....at least be kind n don show it be4 my wedding......

To u guys, I might not be a gd fren....i may not have show enough concern to u....If not willing to help out in my wedding, if not willing to be a fren of mine, tell me early n not to show it to me n let me noe now......

How can u guys be so mean to break my heart now? Not giving me any blessing, also don have to make me sad......

After this entry, or maybe my sms to u guys jus now.....we can only be Hi-bye frens.
Anyway, tonite u already show me, we are juz hi-bye frens.

All i ask for now is to let me noe....will i still be seeing u guys at my wedding.....if not coming....do let me noe asap......i cant take no more upset surprises from no one else......

From the beginning, the day i met u guys.....i should have noe.....im not in the circle....im not in the family.....After each gathering, we go separate ways.....i took bus (lonely)....u guys took train.....

Tonite, i still c ur smile....to the other 3 members.....but not to me......

6 days later......

Waking up in the morning with a man sleeping beside me......

Soon, i will become somebody's wife (thou in terms of law, i am already)...

After ROM (a year has passed), we don't lived together......Im quite excited n looking forward to life after 22nd jun. OFFICIALLY HUSBAND & WIFE!

Looking back into the past…doing a reflection…..thinking how i lived for the past 25 yrs…..

Daddy din leave me with much impression….but I still have with me a few scenes….

Primary sch days: Bz with band, din put in much effort in studies. My kiddy best fren named Xiaoyan. We spent most of our time together! Growing up with almost same batches of D's fren. (Meaning most of us were in class 1D all the way to 6D).

Secondary sch days: Almost same classmates from Sec 1D to 4D, den 5A. (Whahaha. Why am I always in the D class? That’s why I married Dilong? *crapz*). Best teen buddies in sch of coz is Joyce & Jacmama lah. Jacmama n I get even closer after we grad. I still have a "After-sch best buddy". Her name is Sheila. She coach me sch work which makes my results better through out sec sch days….(Slowly from Top 10, to top 5…den once 3rd in class) All thanks to her. She gave me all the best stuff that she could give. She tolerated all my nonsense. Spending all the time with me (esp @ my hse).

Poly days: I missed TP orientation, Mass dance & chicky dance. I like my 1st sem classmates, E050. I don't remember how A.F (animal family) come bout. I always stay together with Nicole, Xueying, Reuben & Adam. Get to date mr. nice guy in poly. Get to noe a gd buddy, JM.

1st job after grad, Law firm. A very short period, 3 mth. Din leave any gd memories there, except happen to noe pri sch fren, Huei ming working there.

2nd job, Student care teacher, 9mths. Fun working with kids.

3rd job, Car firm, 1 n half yrs. Bisi left, get to noe a gd colleague, Sammi. A big sis to take care of me.

4th job, LB, 1 yr. 1st accts job. Colleagues are gd...superior sux....

5th job, SF, 6mths till todate....2nd accts job.....colleagues are gd....workload acceptable.... so far so gd...but can sense that storm coming.....

Family: Mummy, sis n me. I always enjoyed being the youngest....
New members: Bro-in-law, den my hubby.....den my nephew, Titus.....

After all, still feel contented with my life...whom i met in this life......

Im lazy.

Cant be bother-ed.   

Left jacmama by my side. Planned a simple, unique n special bday lunch for me. Thanks ma!

Another will be my hubby. I got my pressie from him mths ago. So a simple day out dating with me on my bday. Watched Nite @ museum 2. Dinner at place dat we nvr dine @ be4.

This week having my exam. Kinda stress. Mood isnt that beautiful.

Thots getting negative too.

I thot my buddies will be somehow somewhere there for me. But aint so.

Okie, should i juz put it this way, my own wedding have to prepare everything myself. I noe its goin to be my bad if i flare my temper now.

If I nvr voice out that i need help, others won't noe.
I'm not suppose to expect others to help on my wedding.

I JUST DONT FEEL HAPPY AT ALL!

Did I choose the wrong time to get married?
Did I choose the wrong man?
Did I choose to wrong fren to mix with?
Did I not being a gd fren?
Did I not being a gd wife?
Did I not being a gd daughter?
Did I not being a gd daughter-in-law?

What do I really want?!
What do I expect from others?
What do others expect from me?

Most married ladies been thru this stage?
I thot suppose to be happy at this moment n wait for the day to come..........

Thou faced a number of dissapointment lately....but....

I feel so gd today! Surprisingly, i saw sheila in msn. Its been 5 to 6 yrs since we last contact. Many things had happen n changed....Long story....sigh....

I always thot that she blocked me in msn...haha...maybe she did....

Anyway, i invited her to my customary in next mth...don noe if she will come...i do hope she can make it.....if she can come...my wedding will be perfect....

I don pin on much hope......don wan another disappointment...thou i know she wont come.....

Going to be 6 mth since i started work in this new co.

I thot it will be a pleasant job for me. Everything changed. Juz becoz of a superior?

Worried!

Congrats to Michelle Chia & Shaun Chen.

Myself, bride-to-be, also wish to rec'd blessing from all who noe me.

Kinda disappointed to know that some of my frens couldnt attend my wedding (this is unavoidable)

Knowing that my sisters (Jac & Joyce) exam round the corner, who still show enttu for my wedding, acc & helped me to get my wedding stuffs, sincerely grateful to u both. *muackz* *muackz* *muackz* (This is wat i can do in return *kekez*)

Stressed! Vexed!

Work, Studies, Wedding......

Schedules in a mess!!

When I needed someone, who will be there for me?

My life don't juz revolved around hubby. & Frens simply don understand it!

Quote from Adam's blog :
"we want the absolute truth, but sometimes, we have to ask ourselves, are we able to handle the truth."

Mousyrach: Truth hurts

Quote from Christine's blog:
"Every rainbow comes after the rain…"

Mousyrach: Thats that apply to relationship?