Left jacmama by my side. Planned a simple, unique n special bday lunch for me. Thanks ma!

Another will be my hubby. I got my pressie from him mths ago. So a simple day out dating with me on my bday. Watched Nite @ museum 2. Dinner at place dat we nvr dine @ be4.

This week having my exam. Kinda stress. Mood isnt that beautiful.

Thots getting negative too.

I thot my buddies will be somehow somewhere there for me. But aint so.

Okie, should i juz put it this way, my own wedding have to prepare everything myself. I noe its goin to be my bad if i flare my temper now.

If I nvr voice out that i need help, others won't noe.
I'm not suppose to expect others to help on my wedding.

I JUST DONT FEEL HAPPY AT ALL!

Did I choose the wrong time to get married?
Did I choose the wrong man?
Did I choose to wrong fren to mix with?
Did I not being a gd fren?
Did I not being a gd wife?
Did I not being a gd daughter?
Did I not being a gd daughter-in-law?

What do I really want?!
What do I expect from others?
What do others expect from me?

Most married ladies been thru this stage?
I thot suppose to be happy at this moment n wait for the day to come..........